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We do.

[She nods with a small smile.]

It's nice to have a team again.

It is. Don't get me wrong, I miss Nicole and Jerear and god I can't believe I'm saying this -- but even Nedley -- but it's nice to have people here we can count on too.

(especially when doc needs to be out of the loop so they don't lose the bar. which she doesn't love. there's a lot about doc's life right now she's not exactly thrilled about even if she gets it wasn't his choice.)

Yeah, it is.

[She takes a deep breath, and there's a slight frown as she talks.]

I really miss Nicole.

I bet. You know you can talk to me about that, right? You don't have to hold it in.

(says the pot who tries very hard not to talk about her own feelings. but she misses nicole too -- not in the same way, of course -- but she misses her all the same.)

[She nods absently, but honestly she doesn't know how to talk about it. She doesn't know how to put into words how lonely she feels and how much she wants to connect with someone in the way that she sees other people connecting.]

She waited eighteen months for me.

[She nods, as though she should be sure.]

I can wait for her.

It's okay if you don't.

(nicole is her friend, and she's not saying waverly needs to cheat on her....but there also people here who have never gotten other people from their own worlds. she doesn't want her sister to wait around forever for someone who might not show up.

that's not fair to waverly.)

[She shrugs.]

I'm not really into anyone like that. Like ... there's no feelings or anything. But sometimes being here is just really ... lonely.

[Not to say that she isn't grateful for her sister or her friends, but they're not Nicole. They don't fill those kinds of needs and she wouldn't ask them to.]

Yeah, it definitely can be.

(wynonna has lost a lot of the people who made this place bearable for her before waverly or doc arrived, when she was basically alone. she's been feeling pretty lonely herself lately, though she doesn't say it. she lets this moment be about waverly.)

It's not fair that the two of you are separated like this. I'm adding it to my list of reasons to be pissed off at God here.

Yeah. But at the same time, I'm not sure I would want her here.

[That's so selfish, isn't it? To want the love of her life to be in Hell just to be with her?

That can't be fair.]

Which is dumb, right? It's like make up your mind.

It's not dumb, angel. It just means you're human like the rest of us mere mortals. I was so happy when you arrived, and I know that's selfish....but this can be a really lonely place.

(and she misses nicole too, though obviously not in the same way.)

[She nods.]

Yeah, you're right.

[Then she looks up at her with a small smile.]

Is it weird that I'd rather be here with you than you being here alone?

(she presses a small kiss at the crown of her sister's head.)

No. But I would send you home in a heartbeat if I could. Don't get me wrong, I love having you here, but you don't belong here.

(whereas wynonna, on some level, still believes that she does.)

We'll get out of here together.

[Because she's not leaving her sister behind if she can help it.]

Hopefully sometime before the Leviathan arrives to kills us all.

[Because that's the other place her brain has been lately, and her other reason for not wanting Nicole here, even if she has no say in the matter.]

If I could avoid dying again, that would be nice.

(she had enough of that during her hallucigenic groundhog's day experience with doc thanks to bulshar. not that she ever went into detail about what happened in there, or what led to her giving up to peacemaker.)

I don't want to see you or anyone I care about here die either.

Me either.

[Which is why whatever the Veiled Order is doing under Barbas's nose is a big concern. But it'll take time for them to figure out what that is.]

But maybe ... it would nice to just be able to get ahead of them for once.

I hear that. Sometimes it feels like we can barely keep up.

(especially with how much things have changed since barbas took over.)

I think that's intentional.

[She sighs.]

Elena and I keep turning over what we have, but ... there has to be more out there for us to find. I need to talk to more people.

Be careful.

(is that the pot calling the kettle black? sure. but waverly has that earp taste for trouble sometimes too.)

And if you ever need backup -- let one of us know.

Yeah, I will.

[She's mostly been having the people come to her, aside from a few proactive moments.]

It's mostly just follow ups. No one too dangerous. Promise.

[And one of them is Steve Rogers, so, you know. Golden retriever in super soldier form.]

Just making sure. Overprotective sister mode is a little in overdrive right now.

(it can't be helped.)

Yeah, I know. I promise I will not attempt any Hell coups.

[That was not one of her best decisions, even if it felt like the right idea at the time.]

Good. I mean, I get it, I want the new asshole out as much as anyone does...but I think it's going to be hard, and we're going to have to be smart, and you know the shit is real if I'm the one saying not to go in guns blazing.

(because that tends to be wynonna's signature style.)

[Waverly nods before looking up at her with a smile.]

Look at you, thinking things through.

I've been here almost a year now, baby girl, I've had to adjust.

(and her normal methods don't often end in favorable results in hell.)

Yeah, I know. But I'm still proud of you all the same.

[You wouldn't expect character growth in Hell, so she's proud of Wynonna for finding it all the same.]

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