stupetballs | penance } { ic inbox

I do spar with Sara sometimes. That helps.

(she definitely prefers that to traditional working out.)

I did some knife throwing with Doc during that weird high school shit. Maybe I need to find some more partners.

(sparring wise, that is.)

We could start doing some sparring again.

[She probably could use the opportunity to blow off some steam herself.]

It's been a while since we've had a good sister spar. Oh! And Natalia mentioned always being willing to take on more sparring partners if you want me to connect you two.

It has been a while.

(and it'd be good for waverly to keep her skills sharp too, just in case.)

That could work. I could ask Diana too -- though I'm pretty sure she can kick my ass with her powers intact.

But, that could be good for sparring with people more powerful than you.

[Which could come in handy, given the kinds of people they might have to go up against to get out of here.]

Learn some tricks to give you an advantage.

It's true. I already know she's hella skilled -- I learned that first hand during our fight in the gladiator ring.

(where wynonna only got as far as she did because diana had been depowered at the time.)

Oh, yeah. She's from an island of badass warrior ladies. And if it exists in our world, we totally should book a vacation there someday.

[She's an angel, after all. Those have to come with some kind of "Find the Hidden Island" privileges.]

Could be fun. Gotta be better than the church for the women scorned was -- though I think they'll be much happier under Rosita's rule, at least.

(finding hidden islands could be fun though.)

[She nods with a small smile.]

I think it'll be good for Rosita too.

[Even though that isn't always the highest priority.]

She seemed pretty happy with her own harem of women to choose from.

(sure they can't really...leave from where they are being the only remaining revenants and all, but considering rosita never should have been a revenant to begin with....well, it's as happy of an ending as any of them could probably ask for.)

I thought I would never forgive her for what she tried to do with Alice -- and I'm not okay with it...but I get it. She just wanted to survive, same as any of us.

She did.

[She reaches over and gives her sister's hand a squeeze.]

And Alice is still safe. That's what matters too.

She is. Even if I'm not thrilled Lucifer was trying to use her as a bargaining chip with Doc.

(which is what originally sprung on this conversation turned visit.)

[They've managed to come full circle.]

I think it's his job to tell us whatever he thinks will work to get us on his side. I don't think he'll actually follow through - or if he does, it's not in a way that would actually help us.

Neither do I. But still. I'd rather my daughter stay out of the equation. He's lucky he didn't try that shit with me.

(it probably would have ended with wynonna pulling peacemaker on lucifer, which would have ended badly for everyone.)

I think he knows better. You and Doc don't react to Alice the same way. Doc can be ... easily persuaded when he thinks he has no other cards.

[She loves him, but you saw it with the Stone Witch and Kate. Doc backed into a corner can make ill-advised choices.]

It's true. He tends to buy in more. He definitely went all in with the brainwashing stuff.

(which is probably not her place to talk about in depth. doc probably wants to drop the he turned his hell husband to waverly himself.)

[He will. Eventually.]

The brainwashing is not his fault. But I get what you mean.

Edited 2021-03-07 03:08 (UTC)

Right. But it doesn't mean I have to be happy that he was playing happy husbands. Or that he's married again at all.

(so much for not dragging waverly into her doc feelings. whoops.)

No, you're absolutely right. You don't have to be happy about that.

[She will support her in her being unhappy. Then she pauses, before asking a question that Wynonna probably doesn't want her to ask.]

Is there a part of you that wishes it was you, not Ray?

[It's a loaded question, but it's an important one, given the ups and downs of everything.]

(wynonna makes a face at that.)

Of course not. I don't want to be married. I just...also don't want him to be married.

(that's....completely fair and rational, right? )

But do you want to be with him?

[Because she wasn't really asking so much about the marriage so much as wanting to be with Doc.]

Or do you just want him to not be with anyone else while you keep being Wynonna.

[Which she isn't saying to be cruel, but she wants to know what her sister really wants.]

I don't know.

(it's...fucking complicated. like it always is with them.)

We were trying before...like monogamously because...hell isn't really made for that and I had had attachments I made here but it didn't last long before we woke up in bed together with a bad batch of new memories. And we were finally beginning to work past some of that -- fuck I didn't even care when he got married because it didn't seem like Lucifer was going to enforce it or anything but then Barbas took over and we had a goodbye screw or whatever the hell that was that night and now we're here. And it doesn't matter what I want because he has to be the face of things, so he can't risk being unfaithful to this husband he didn't ask for if we want him to stay on Barbas' good side.

And Klaus is gone. And Jason is gone. And Homelander had to move out because he's fucking married too and it all just sucks. I feel so alone in a way I haven't in a long time here.

(sorry waverly she just like....word vomitted a lot of information at you.)

[It's okay. She takes it in, and listens and tries not to respond with the automatic "you have me" because it isn't about that. Just like it isn't about Waverly having Wynonna here with her isn't about Nicole.]

Yeah. Everything really sucks.

[She tips her head to the side as she pulls her closer.]

It's okay to feel how much it sucks.

(wynonna knows how lucky she is to have waverly. to have family. and other friends still. but it doesn't remove the sting from everything else. both things can be true at the same time.)

I'm tired of feeling it. I wish there was an off switch.

(but that's not an option. so she'll pull in waverly closer and elvis will nestle himself between the two sisters in a proper cuddle pile.)

I know.

[It's a good cuddle pile, and she reaches down to give Elvis a helpful scritch.]

We'll figure it out. Being here, Doc, the marriage situation. We've got a list. And with that list, we will conquer. I have faith in us.

And I have faith in you. (when waverly puts her mind to something, god help anyone who tries to stop her, honestly.)

You should keep us company tonight.

penance } { ic inbox

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)