stupetballs | penance } { ic inbox

Yeah, it definitely can be.

(wynonna has lost a lot of the people who made this place bearable for her before waverly or doc arrived, when she was basically alone. she's been feeling pretty lonely herself lately, though she doesn't say it. she lets this moment be about waverly.)

It's not fair that the two of you are separated like this. I'm adding it to my list of reasons to be pissed off at God here.

Yeah. But at the same time, I'm not sure I would want her here.

[That's so selfish, isn't it? To want the love of her life to be in Hell just to be with her?

That can't be fair.]

Which is dumb, right? It's like make up your mind.

It's not dumb, angel. It just means you're human like the rest of us mere mortals. I was so happy when you arrived, and I know that's selfish....but this can be a really lonely place.

(and she misses nicole too, though obviously not in the same way.)

[She nods.]

Yeah, you're right.

[Then she looks up at her with a small smile.]

Is it weird that I'd rather be here with you than you being here alone?

(she presses a small kiss at the crown of her sister's head.)

No. But I would send you home in a heartbeat if I could. Don't get me wrong, I love having you here, but you don't belong here.

(whereas wynonna, on some level, still believes that she does.)

We'll get out of here together.

[Because she's not leaving her sister behind if she can help it.]

Hopefully sometime before the Leviathan arrives to kills us all.

[Because that's the other place her brain has been lately, and her other reason for not wanting Nicole here, even if she has no say in the matter.]

If I could avoid dying again, that would be nice.

(she had enough of that during her hallucigenic groundhog's day experience with doc thanks to bulshar. not that she ever went into detail about what happened in there, or what led to her giving up to peacemaker.)

I don't want to see you or anyone I care about here die either.

Me either.

[Which is why whatever the Veiled Order is doing under Barbas's nose is a big concern. But it'll take time for them to figure out what that is.]

But maybe ... it would nice to just be able to get ahead of them for once.

I hear that. Sometimes it feels like we can barely keep up.

(especially with how much things have changed since barbas took over.)

I think that's intentional.

[She sighs.]

Elena and I keep turning over what we have, but ... there has to be more out there for us to find. I need to talk to more people.

Be careful.

(is that the pot calling the kettle black? sure. but waverly has that earp taste for trouble sometimes too.)

And if you ever need backup -- let one of us know.

Yeah, I will.

[She's mostly been having the people come to her, aside from a few proactive moments.]

It's mostly just follow ups. No one too dangerous. Promise.

[And one of them is Steve Rogers, so, you know. Golden retriever in super soldier form.]

Just making sure. Overprotective sister mode is a little in overdrive right now.

(it can't be helped.)

Yeah, I know. I promise I will not attempt any Hell coups.

[That was not one of her best decisions, even if it felt like the right idea at the time.]

Good. I mean, I get it, I want the new asshole out as much as anyone does...but I think it's going to be hard, and we're going to have to be smart, and you know the shit is real if I'm the one saying not to go in guns blazing.

(because that tends to be wynonna's signature style.)

[Waverly nods before looking up at her with a smile.]

Look at you, thinking things through.

I've been here almost a year now, baby girl, I've had to adjust.

(and her normal methods don't often end in favorable results in hell.)

Yeah, I know. But I'm still proud of you all the same.

[You wouldn't expect character growth in Hell, so she's proud of Wynonna for finding it all the same.]

Thanks. It's nice to hear that.

(and it really is. wynonna is trying so hard. maybe not always succeeding -- but sleeping with constantine had been a rock bottom in some ways, and she's been trying to get her shit together since...as much as her shit is ever together, anyway.)

Good.

[She shifts to sit up a little bit.]

Are you okay? With all the change that's been happening lately?

(is she okay? no, not really. but what is she supposed to tell waverly? that she and doc slept together the night barbas took over and she doesn't know what it means because he's married and he turned his stupid, nice husband into a vampire. klaus is gone. jason is gone. homelander had to change rooms to be with his husband (who...she may or may not have also slept with). and she's trying to hold herself together because there's too much at stake for her to spiral out right now.)

Are any of us? No. I'm not.

[It isn't so much that Waverly expected her to be okay, but more sometimes it's good to say it, and acknowledge it. Even if it's not advice she's currently following at the moment.]

I'm here. If you want to talk about it.

After what you've been through I'm sure the last think you want to hear is my complaining.

(comparatively, her problems seem trivial.)

I don't know. Sometimes it can be nice to work on someone else's problems for a change.

[It's not trivial, in Waverly's mind. If something's bothering her sister, she wants to know. And, in a lot of ways it's a distraction. It's something she might be able to solve.]

But we don't have to if you don't want to.

I just....don't know what to say anymore. People I give a shit about keep disappearing. Or ending up in forced marriages they don't even want to be in, that they didn't consent to, and it all just sucks. And I can't do anything about it. Me and my bigass magic gun don't mean anything here.

(and as good as it had felt to let some of that out while waverly was taken...it's not like she accomplished anything beyond killing a few demons. she feels so powerless here sometimes. she hates that feeling.)

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