(sometimes, for better or for worse, wynonna forgets that things were hard for waverly too, just in different ways, and how much she just wanted to be seen.)
I guess -- part of me has always been jealous. Because from where I was standing...it did seem easier and I didn't understand why. (why it was easier for people to love waverly, especially people like gus who would often couch her love for wynonna in also reminding her that she broken, and that waverly would be better off without her. she probably thinks alice is better off without her too.)
Once I shot Daddy -- it felt like everyone other than you and Curtis gave up on me. And everyone kept telling me you'd be better off if I was gone -- so you'd have less of a shadow to live in. And no one ever tried to protect me like that, save me like that. Even Mama told me to leave and never come back the last time I visited her -- though I know now she her reasons but it didn't change how it felt at the time.
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(sometimes, for better or for worse, wynonna forgets that things were hard for waverly too, just in different ways, and how much she just wanted to be seen.)
I guess -- part of me has always been jealous. Because from where I was standing...it did seem easier and I didn't understand why. (why it was easier for people to love waverly, especially people like gus who would often couch her love for wynonna in also reminding her that she broken, and that waverly would be better off without her. she probably thinks alice is better off without her too.)
Once I shot Daddy -- it felt like everyone other than you and Curtis gave up on me. And everyone kept telling me you'd be better off if I was gone -- so you'd have less of a shadow to live in. And no one ever tried to protect me like that, save me like that. Even Mama told me to leave and never come back the last time I visited her -- though I know now she her reasons but it didn't change how it felt at the time.