And the last time I took the big risk it blew up in my face!

(granted it wasn't with doc, but still, even when she finally tried with klaus, it had been too late, because she didn't know how to love someone properly. she's been working on it and has come a long way since then but still --

maybe people like her don't get to have more than this.)

I wouldn't even know what to do with the big reward if I had it! And as you just reminded me, I may not even be who he wants anymore.